Just a quick post – in my excitement for my next BDSM session, here is the marker that today is the day.
Yes. Here I go again.
My goodness she looks severe, these won’t be love-taps she give me.
In a few hours I shall be kneeling in front of mistress as she puts the XH tawse over her shoulder. My hands will be out front offered up for the leather to redden.
An upcoming post will hopefully provide some details and some emotional and mental health updates.
How many real life BDSM sessions featuring corporal and bondage do you read about?
BDSM sessions are extremely intimate and private making sharing a little out of the comfort zone, but with the best of intentions I say I will try.
What follows is a snippet from a proposed upcoming post. This is how I feel “now” just a few short hours prior to the session.
My previous BDSMsession with heavy corporal and belt bondage was 9 months ago, while the one before that was 4 months prior again.
During much this and last year the Covid virus ran rampant in the community with lock downs and restrictions being in force causing availability of the venue to be limited. In previous years I had averaged over 6 sessions a year with some years having many more.
Absence from the dungeon has consequences.
I miss it, I feel less stable and grounded. I fixate and my mental health deteriorates. This was initially hard to understand and describe, hard to come to terms with and even harder to admit to. But it is a consequence. My wife is so supportive and encouraging. She now actually tells me to have a session when she sees how I am feeling even though the whole thing is vastly uncomfortable for her.
Having sessions further apart means the corporal punishment I take is harder to endure, it seems to get in more as my body reacts more strongly. Yes, it is true, the tolerance for regular corporal punishment does increase when it’s received regularly.
Is the lower tolerance I have a bad thing? Since I go there for the out of body experience, the almost cathartic release that corporal, bondage and dungeon brings perhaps it is no bad thing. It is just more painful. I’ll get over it.
Also and not to be ignored is that having a session feels more exciting, much more exciting after a time away. The anticipation of a session is stronger with my imagination having a fine old time reliving memories and distracting me. It is not “meh, just another session” which is a feeling I’ve had in the past. This is the full mind and body experience of excitement and yes those silent quivers have kicked in.