I created Silent Quivers, this site, a few years ago as a place to publish stories and provide some topical information on the BDSM kink I enjoy.
I had high hopes it would help people, as well as perhaps to entertain.
I also set about putting up what I thought was helpful information for people like me who maybe struggled with this secret passion.
I know this internal battle I feel between the logical side and my fetish and kink needs gives me a lot of trouble. At times I truly am almost quivering in my need. I had that for over 3 decades before I had my first ever BDSM session.
So Where Is This Site Going?
I don’t know. I don’t have a real plan. I wish I did. I am kind of using this post to help me make up my mind.
I’ve had a lot of pleasure from a few people who contacted me and thanked me for the information, taking the time, and showing them there are others out there like themselves.
There is no advertising on the site – and I do get approached for that. Not advertizing is deliberate – this is about something that is so private and dear to me and I don’t want to pollute or degrade the experience for others. But some money would be nice!
Some days I feel like scrapping the site and saving the hosting fees. At others I quite enjoy writing a post and then updating it later.
I’ve gone months without posting, and then post a few things in a week or two (like now). I have no schedule and that probably shows.
I have met a few people like myself through this site, only males, which is a little disappointing. But it really is pleasing when contact is made.
Some are into caning, others into hand strapping and tawsing and there are even a few domestic discipline readers (note to self – I must finish the story I have on this topic). But there is always a common theme of corporal punishment filling a need.
I do enjoy all the comments and feedback I get. Maybe if this dries up I’ll delete the site.
Why No New Stories?
It has been a while I’ll admit.
I absolutely enjoy writing about BDSM and my special kind of kink focused stories. I have a huge collection of them partially written, not finished, waiting for me to do some work on them. You get the idea!
Yes. I start something then don’t finish. That’s a huge problem.
For example, the “Femdom Riding Academy” is 12,000 words, and “Whip Mistress Transitions” is another 12,000 words, and “Naughty Solo Nancy” is 38,000 words. “Cyber Red Wire” is 35,000 words. I even wrote a “TED Talk” and re-wrote it 4 times detailing my life into these silent quivers – the journey from teen to senior. I gave the talk a half dozen times in a private time as if I was presenting to an audience, tweaking it for delivery and flow. That was challenging and enlightening.
The problem is I start, slam out thousands of words then something else comes to mind and I move on to work on that for a time.
Sorry! If you are wanting stores, they are there, just not finished. Yet.
Maybe if I got a little more encouragement I might finish some.
How Popular Is Silent Quivers?
I get anywhere from 20 to 100 impressions a day. This is the number of times the site comes up in an internet search and is shown to someone.
Google reports I get from 10 to 20 clicks a day for the last 2 months which results in an average of 13.3% clicks to views. Prior to that clicks could be as low as zero and as high as 20 again but the percentage was similar, and it is similar over 12 months.
These last few months have been more steady with higher regular clicks per day. I have no idea why that is happening – but the site is slowly growing. I think it is doing about double the traffic from 2 years go approx.
I’m looking at the most popular postings that are found by searches. It varies between three common searches.
Hand tawsing and strapping – is a very popular search. These lead to informative real life articles as well as fiction.
Cold caning – is another popular search and the posts on this get more trafic than most. I have one more in the pipeline for posting in a week or so (a fine plan that!).
Stories comes a close third. Users of the site probably search for one thing, then move to the stores to see what it’s all about.
But It is All About The Journey
Yep. I forget that so often.
I had my last session maybe 6 months ago now. I only had 2 during 2021 and COVID, work, depression and enduring life’s burden does weigh heavily on me.
Today I was feeling pretty low. The ‘black dog of depression‘ has been snapping at my heels for a while now. I commented to my wife I really am missing my secret hobby (she knows exactly what this is) and she told be to ‘just go and get it done‘ for which my love for her just blooms.
My fear is that I am feeling it would be an escape at this time of my life, putting my head in the sand. I would be just avoiding some of the issues we are facing and not addressing them properly.
Then again it would centre me, relieve me of stress and make me feel calm and relaxed and balanced again. I coul face the world with bright eyes, a calmed mind and a new attitude.
Damn! I’m arguing with myself again, never a great sign of mental balance because that is how I feel.
I truly envy those who can ‘just go and get things done‘ and storm through life without these silly internal conflicts.
But I do need the escape.
Silent Quivers helps in all this. I agonize, I write, I blather on about life and needs and kink – and it helps. Maybe it is a kind of public agony column and diary?
Just writing those words above makes me think.
If You've Read This Far....
You need a medal for perserverence!
Silent Quivers will be around for another year – the hosting fees are due soon and I’ll pay them. I’ll re-evaluate next year.
Thanks for being here.
Play safe, play sane – ‘Trikki