It was in about 2005 when I sought professional help as my life was in crisis. Things had got vastly out of hand. I was a mess.
I saw a local psychologist which was the best thing I ever did. She provided insights that made a life changing difference to me.
‘What does denial bring’ were the first words she said that hit me hard. It was obvious to her and probably to anyone reading this that I was sufferig from trying to hide my inner self. It was equally obvious to her that I should do something about it and this was the first step in that process.
‘BDSM does not make you a bad person’ was another set of strong words she gave me. These helped absolve me of guilt. In my state, that was a revelation.
‘I don’t know why you don’t have a BDSM session’ was another set. I described to her my inner longing and what I had fantasized about for years. She could see the turmoil in me and she said those words. They were again revelatory in that someone could accept me even knowing that.
‘The BDSM session does not lessen who you are.’ This was almost a repeat of the second thing, but it was in reference to my position as a manager, as a husband and father.
I Recommend Seeking Professional help
If you feel lost, abandoned, prone to depression and panic attacks then it is vital you seek help. You are not alone and help really is available.
If your state of mind has this BDSM thing in there, lurking, destabilizing you then take heed. You are just like me and again, help is readily available.